*After avoiding the press for a year since the Taylor Swift incident, Kanye West is finally telling his side of the story in an article he penned himself for XXL magazine.

“I stress that the incident wasn’t about Taylor personally. And it definitely wasn’t about race. Where I messed up is, at the end of the day, it’s your show, Taylor. It’s your show, MTV,” West explains in XXL’s October 2010 issue, on stands next week.

“The relationship with the public and with your fans is like the relationship with your girlfriend. How could I not, at a certain point, be like, ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been at the awards show. I’m sorry.’ Not that I don’t deserve to get beat up or change who I am inside, to make sure that that doesn’t happen again.”

Kanye West in the October 2010 issue of XXL

West is, of course, speaking about the night last year when he stormed the stage at the VMAs, grabbed Swift’s mic and told the audience that Beyonce deserved to win the Best Female Video award that had just been awarded to the young country star.

During Sunday night’s 2010 VMAs, West took aim at his disrespectful behavior in a song that closed the show.

“I knew I wasn’t in a great spot publicly after the incident, but I would just block it out and work as hard as possible and let my work be my saving grace. In a way, I had thrown a Molotov cocktail at my own career, and it gave me an opportunity, for the first time, to go away and find out who I was. Because I felt very alone,” he writes in the mag.

In addition to writing his own article, West curated and creatively directed 40 pages of the magazine.

Next for the rapper musically is a 40-minute music video for his single “Runaway.” He describes the work to NY Mag as “the story of a phoenix fallen to Earth” who becomes his girlfriend before she is discriminated against and burns herself alive to escape the criticism.

West continues on the symbolic nature of phoenixes: “I’ve been feeling the idea of the phoenix. It’s been in my heart for a while. It’s maybe parallel to my career. I threw a Molotov cocktail on my career last year, in a way, and I had to come back as a better person.”