*In the latest UK edition of GQ magazine, Naomi Campbell opens up about her past alcohol and drug abuse issues and their effect on her life, referring to both as “an allergy” for her.
“It rips you world apart. I never thought I was an alcoholic but it goes hand in hand with the drugs,” she said. “Emotionally I was just gone. I was emotionally unattached to myself. You just want to numb your pain. And I’ve got tons of stuff. Same as everybody else. I didn’t like the way I was. Drink and drugs are an allergy for me, and they don’t make me a better person.”
Campbell’s mother Valerie raised her as a single parent from the age of 18 after her father walked out on them both when Naomi was just two months old. The supermodel has admitted she experimented with cocaine when she was in her 20s, and at the time didn’t realize the damage it could cause.
“I was a party girl. I started quite late, 24. I was having fun,” she said. “It wasn’t that I couldn’t get out of bed in the morning without it. It wasn’t a coping mechanism. It was a party thing and I didn’t realize how powerful it was, in a very wrong way. The fun comes with consequences, you are killing yourself…I was an active addict. But I could still function.”
The 40-year-old model was proud of herself when she stopped using cocaine and insists there is no shame in seeking help.
She said: “Recovery is a positive thing. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. When you know you need help, and seek help, you need that time to deal with it. Get used to that new discipline. Tell when you are ready to tell. There’s no shame. There are people who get out of that prison, like Eric Clapton. I wanted to know what it was – that peace, that serenity. A lot of my friends didn’t want to hang out with me when I came back. That hurt.”