*Bobby Brown now says he was driven to confront his various drug and alcohol demons after watching his 2005 reality series “Being Bobby Brown” and becoming horrified by his behavior.
“(The TV show) was partly why I got clean. I saw exactly what I didn’t want to see about myself,” the 42-year-old singer tells People magazine.
Brown claims he has turned his life around since famously battling problems with cocaine and heroin abuse during his tumultuous marriage to Whitney Houston. He is currently celebrating six years of sobriety.
Now married to manager Alicia Etheridge, Brown says he’s determined to be a hands-on father to their baby son Cassius after failing to fully support his four eldest children from previous relationships, including 18-year-old Bobbi Kristina, his daughter with Houston.
“When I used to get high, I wasn’t there for my older kids. I always had a drink in my hand or disappeared,” he said.
Brown confesses that during his darkest days, he couldn’t see himself living through his fourth decade: “All the things I’ve done and been through, I never thought I’d reach 40. I did drugs because I was lonely and thought no one cared for me. I take full responsibility for everything I’ve done. I’m just grateful to be where I am now.”
He adds, “My past has made me the man I am now. I had to grow. I got my passion back for music, for loving myself. I’m a better person, so I can be a better partner and father. They are my support system, my everything. Without them, I don’t know where I’d be.”