*Football player, Tiki Barber said he fell into depression after leaving the league.

In an HBO report airing tonight (06-21-11), he reveals that shortly after turning in his jersey, depression hit him like a bag of bricks.

36-year-old Barber, the New York Giants’ career leading rusher tried for the past few months to make a comeback with little chance to really outshine the youngins’.

With an obvious love for the game, he said football represents stability and strength in his life.

“The game never needs you because there’s always someone else to come and take your place,” he said. “But right now, I need the game.”

He continued saying, “I need to prove to myself that I can be successful at something. I know I’m going to be successful as a football player. I don’t know why. The odds say ‘No.’ I’m 36 and I haven’t played in four years. But I just know.”

Barber tried to stay involved after retirement as a NBC football analyst, a $2 million a year job, but that ended with his firing. His marriage to his college sweetheart then failed, and he was plagued with the aftermath of a relationship he started with a 23-year-old NBC intern.

All in all, Barber admits it’s hard to deal with his failure.

“I crafted this career, right?” he said. “And I had gotten to the point where I was right where I wanted to be and then I failed. It’s hard to deal with.”

Barber said after his job at NBC ended, he didn’t do anything for a solid year.

“I remember there were days where I would literally wake up, have coffee, get something to eat and sit on the couch and do nothing for 10 hours,” he said. “I started to shrivel. I didn’t have that confidence. I didn’t have the, that aura anymore.”

The interview continues at cbssports.com.