Recording Artist J. Cole poses in the Backstage Winner's Room at Nokia Theatre L.A. Live on June 30, 2013 in Los Angeles

Recording Artist J. Cole poses in the Backstage Winner’s Room at Nokia Theatre L.A. Live on June 30, 2013 in Los Angeles

*Rapper J. Cole is apologizing to those with autism and their families for an offensive lyric.

In a blog post Sunday, Cole said that he doesn’t agree with the recent trend of pressure rappers have faced to apologize when they step over a perceived line, but in this case he feels he went too far in a verse he contributed to Drake’s “Jodeci Freestyle.”

In the song, Cole raps that he’s “artistic” while his rivals are “autistic, retarded.”

Cole wrote that when he first heard a backlash from those who deal with the developmental disorder he immediately realized he went too far.

“To the parents who are fighting through the frustrations that must come with raising a child with severe autism, finding strength and patience that they never knew they had; to the college student with Asperger’s syndrome; to all those overcoming autism,” Cole wrote. “You deserve medals, not disrespect. I hope you accept my sincere apology.”

Cole believes in artistic freedom and says he views envelope pushing in music the same way he does in comedy: “It’s going to ruffle some feathers at times.”

“I was instantly embarrassed that I would be ignorant enough say something so hurtful,” Cole wrote. “What makes the crime worse is that I should have known better.”

Cole goes on to write that he’s inspired by those who reached out to him: “I have now read stories online from parents about their struggles and triumphs with raising an autistic child and I admire how incredibly strong you have to be to do so,” he wrote. “It’s touching. It also makes what I said even more embarrassing for me. I feel real shame.”

for me. I feel real shame.”