Kim Goldman, the sister of murder victim Ron Goldman, cries after the not guilty verdicts were read in the O.J. Simpson murder trial October 3, 1995 in Los Angeles, California.

Kim Goldman, the sister of murder victim Ron Goldman, cries after the not guilty verdicts were read in the O.J. Simpson murder trial October 3, 1995 in Los Angeles, California.

*Kim Goldman revealed this week how she came within inches of killing O.J. Simpson a year after he was found not guilty of stabbing to death her brother and Nicole Brown Simpson.

Kim Goldman told the National Enquirer: “In 1996, [Simpson] walked in front of me while I was driving my car. I thought ‘I can kill him, right here, right now.’ I never thought ‘avenger’ and ‘assassin’ were words to describe me, but in that moment they were.”

As she revved her car’s engine and looked straight at Simpson, Ms Goldman said her feelings of rage subsided.

She said: “I am not a killer, and he is. I have appropriate hatred toward the man who stabbed my brother in the head and left him for dead.”

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The 43-year-old mother-of-one, who lives in Valencia, California, is the director of the nonprofit SCV Youth Project, which provides counseling and support for young people.

Her e-book memoir, Can’t Forgive: My Twenty-Year Battle with O.J. Simpson, was published Tuesday and chronicles her decades-long legal pursuit of Simpson.

Simpson’s ex-wife Nicole Brown Simpson and her friend Ron Goldman, a waiter, were stabbed to death outside her Brentwood home on June 12, 1994. O.J. was charged with the murders, but acquitted after what became known as the “Trial of the Century” in 1995.

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Goldman writes in her memoir how she attended every day of Simpson’s murder trial and the stress almost drove her to suicide. She said the thought of her father Fred, struggling with the weight of his own grief, pulled her back from the brink.

The 43-year-old said that watching Simpson go free left her feeling furious and betrayed.

Goldman, who at the time was dating First Lady Hillary Clinton’s make-up artist, said that her boyfriend conveyed messages of support from the White House. She wrote in her book that Mrs. Clinton passed messages of sympathy to her family and that when the Goldmans went to meet President Clinton, he said that he was proud of how they had conducted themselves throughout the trial.

Following the criminal trial, the Goldman and Brown families pursued Simpson in civil court for $33.5million in damages and won. The families have only seen around 1 percent of the money – but Kim Goldman says she will never stop trying to get the award from Simpson – not because they want to be rich but because she wants to leave him destitute.

Ron and Kim Goldman

Ron and Kim Goldman

Goldman said she rejoiced over the Simpson’s 2008 conviction on kidnapping, armed robbery and other charges in Las Vegas. Simpson was sentenced to between nine to 33 years in Nevada state prison. Kim Goldman said she sent him a card behind bars that read: “Congratulations on your new home. Hope you enjoy your new digs! From the Goldman family.”

Goldman, who only refers to Simpson as “The Killer” in her book, says that her only relief now will come from his death. However she told SignalSCV that writing the memoir has brought her some peace.

“Writing has been important to me in finding my voice and taking back control of my life,” she said. “I wanted people to know the parts of me that are important and strong, rather than (the victim).”