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*On the day that her husband, Ray Rice, was reinstated into the NFL, Janay Rice is finally speaking out.

Except for the press conference she and Ray participated in with the support of the Baltimore Ravens, Janay has mostly stayed quiet following the couple’s involvement in that now infamous elevator incident last Spring in which Ray knocked her unconscious.

In a new, long-form, first-person story for ESPN.com, written by Jemele Hill, Janay Rice speaks freely about that night in Atlantic City, and the subsequent meetings with Baltimore Ravens and NFL officials.

“I really didn’t think they would ask me any questions, but I was asked one,” Janay wrote. “I was surprised I was asked anything at all. One of the NFL executives asked me how I felt about everything. And I broke down in tears. I could hardly get a word out. I just told him that I was ready for this to be over.”

She says she’s seen the first video that shows what happened outside the elevator, but has not – and does’t intend to — see the video from inside the elevator that shows Ray Rice delivering the punch that knocked her out cold. Here’s what she remembers from the event.

“We got into the elevator and what happened inside is still foggy to me. The only thing I know — and I can’t even say I ‘remember’ because I only know from what Ray has told me — is that I slapped him again and then he hit me. I remember nothing else from inside the elevator.”

Here’s some more tidbits from the article:

On Apologizing for Her Role in the Incident at Ravens News Conference:
” I know some people disagreed with me publicly apologizing. I’m not saying that what Ray did wasn’t wrong. He and I both know it was wrong. It’s been made clear to him that it was wrong. But at the same time, who am I to put my hands on somebody? ”

On What Ray Was Thinking After He Hit Her:
“I asked him how he felt when he saw that I was unconscious. He told me he was in shock. I asked him what happened when we got out of the elevator. He told me he was terrified because security was there. I asked him how he felt seeing me like that. He said he was thinking, “What did I just do?” I didn’t watch the video again.”

On What Ray and Janay told Roger Goodell:
“Ray told the commissioner, and his colleagues, everything that happened. There was no reason to lie because we knew that there was a video and we assumed the NFL knew what was in it, even though we didn’t know whether or not they saw it.

On Anger at Baltimore Ravens for Cutting Ray:
“I was extremely surprised and angry that the Ravens released him, because they know him. They were our family, but I felt like the Ravens completely disregarded the past six years with him. Anytime the Ravens needed someone for a community event, Ray was their man.

On Being a Martyr for Domestic Violence:
“If it took our situation becoming headline news to show domestic violence is happening in this country, that’s a positive.”

You can get the full story at ESPN.